Hope you're bearing with me...

Hey everyone,
sorry it's been awhile since I've written. My life seriously kind of exploded in a big combustion of fire... as if there is another way to explode?
I had school work, both jobs, issues with a friend, and then the relationship to keep up with. Needless to say, my sleep schedule has been off and unimportant. Not healthy! 
So now, time to catch ya'll up. Here we go.

SCHOOL:
So, I finished my second round of school. About time too, it seems like they last so much longer than 9 weeks, it's crazy! But I got my grades from my last 4 classes. Personal Finances: A- University Studies: B- Health: A Composition 101: A. Yeah, that's right. I'm rocking this college thing.
Now for the not so chipper part of the school thing. I don't know when I get to start the third round. My PLUS loan has yet to go through. I don't know what is going on and it's really stressing me out. I have the acceptance letter but for some reason it hasn't been cleared by my school. First I was supposed to start my third round on the 8th, now I'm supposed to start on the 15th... but that is looking like it is going to change too. Bleh.

JOBS:
     DANCE:
So, I don't know if I had announced yet, but I have my dream job right now. I am a dance teacher. Only down side is that since I'm still so young and I'm working at a studio that just opened... I have no following. As much as I like my 2 students, I'm not making enough to make rent. Grr... Really sucks. I'm trying to get more students but I'm running out of ideas on how. I'm trying to remain calm and let it be in God's hands, but I'm scared. This is my dream job. I don't want to lose it yet.
      ASSISTANT:
This is the job that is really starting to bug me. See, I was hired as this family's nanny, but since the mom runs her own business and is preggers with another kid. She called me up and asked if I could help her out with her business. I, of course, said yes. I mean, I'm 20, in college and trying to make a living... why would I turn down extra money. Now the issue is the fact that she has been gone this entire week. I have been running the business. I've only had about 2 weeks training and I'm running the business. Something wasn't clear so now a whole lot is screwed up and of course, she blames me. I'm starting to wonder if this job is even worth it. She wants me to run the store on Saturday, of which I haven't been trained for ever... I'm tired of her talking to me like I'm her child. I know I'm young, but once you actually show me what to do, I catch on fast. She isn't clear when she verbally gives instructions, but she doesn't understand what I mean by that. I don't know what to do with this anymore.

ISSUES WITH A FRIEND:
I tried to keep this quiet and secretive but I can't anymore. This thing ("thing" meaning rumor) got out that I had cheated on my boyfriend. Haha, right? Except not.  I was honestly scared that I would lose not only my boyfriend, but my best friend. Then when I found out who started it... I was shocked to find out it had been one of my friends. Well, I fixed things with my boyfriend, and was forgiving of my friend. Then just this morning he makes me sound like I was dependent on him and that his opinion of my relationship means the world to me. It really ticked me off. Especially since when I confronted him about the "cheating" thing, he lied to me not only once but twice. He lied the day I asked, and I caught him in that one. Then I was hanging out with another friend, she was at the party where this scene started and she told me the whole thing. Turns out they weren't drunk, so he knew perfectly well what he was saying. Wow, jerk. I don't think it needs to be said that I lost a friend here, but its for the better. I don't need or want someone that toxic in my life. He would put me down, tell me that we wouldn't ever be able to date and he puts down my religion because I believe in God. I mean, my boyfriend isn't sure he believes in God, but he's still okay that I am strong in my faith.

as for the BOYFRIEND:
Things are getting better between him and I. He took me out last night, and he wouldn't tell me where we were going for dinner. Ends up he greatly spoiled me by taking me to Olive Garden. Which is seriously the love of my stomach's life. After that we hung out for a bit, cuddled and talked. I told him about my emotional disorder and he actually was really supportive and okay with it. I was shocked. Usually when people find out about it, they tend to back off. But he almost held me closer. It was a nice change. It was at that point that I knew this relationship was worth working at. 

As for me in general? Well, I'm currently injured. Which sucks. I hurt my lower back at the assistant job by tripping over the stupid cat. I caught myself luckily, but it racked my back out pretty good so I'm going to physical therapy to try to get it better. Other than that, I'm stressed, sleep deprived, and barely have time to eat. This isn't healthy, and it's all due to the assistant job because the woman wants me to dedicate my life to it, and I refuse.
Stay positive, you guys. I know it's hard, trust me I know. But the toxic people don't belong, the supportive people are the ones who need to stay. Figure out who/what is worth working at/for/with... and forget the rest. And above all (this is the one I need to focus on), remember to remember yourself at least once a day. Not only to remember who you are, but to keep yourself healthy. I know that society today does a number on a person's mind and self image, as well as confidence. But you are beautiful as you.