Please, forgive me

Hey readers, sorry it's been so long since I've been in touch. But here's everything broken down just like last blog. There is quite a bit going on, so I'm doing it this way again so that if there's a certain part that really doesn't interest you, you can simply skip it. :)
Thanks for keeping with me.


Boyfriend: So, I want to start here because it seems to be one of the only things keeping steady. My boyfriend's and my 2 month mark was on the 26th. I baked him a ton of cookies and took them to his work. He was ecstatic. Though things seem to be edgy between him and I right now, I'm sure it's just because we are both under a lot of stress and we aren't at the point of sharing the stress with each other yet. But it's been nice, I stayed with him the last two Wednesdays and we watched shows and he rarely let go of me. It was nice feeling like I meant something. I know here soon though, I'm going to have to explain why I get really insecure the day after I stay the night.
It's simple really, I'm used to being used. I'm used to just being that friend that gets the benefits of being a girlfriend but doesn't get to be the girlfriend so now I'm really on edge and cautious because everything seems new and I'm just hoping it doesn't break.
I know my boyfriend does care about me, but it's simply a wall that is slowly being broken down.
It's crazy him and I have been together for 2 months now. In all honesty, when this started between him and I, I didn't think it would last a month and a half.
It's hard though because since this has been such an anticipated relationship in my friend group, I feel like I have no one to talk to about either the good or bad stuff. If I talk to people about the good stuff, they seem bored... if I talk about the bad stuff it's like the world is on fire and all I hear is "this was bound to happen" or "it's not worth it" or even "break it off then". They don't get that, yeah there's some stuff that I don't like or something that him and I are having difficulty with... but I adore this guy and want to work through as much as we can. He's worth it to me.

Work: So I quit the assistant job, because it was either I quit or grovel for my position. I was put in charge of the entire business after a few weeks of training and apparently "messed up the entire business". To this day I have no idea how that is even possible since I didn't do anything new. I feel like she wanted to fire me, so she set me up.
She has yet to give me my final check though, so my mom and I are apparently going over there tomorrow to get it. Now those of you who know me know that this isn't good for me. Confrontation usually makes me cry so much to where I get physically ill. I don't know how this is going to work because it is not going to help any for me to be sitting there a blubbering fool trying to get my paycheck.
On a brighter side of all this, I am looking for another job and have had two interviews and have another one in a few weeks. There is one job that I sent references to that I would absolutely love to have, so cross your fingers for me. I need to find one soon or else I have to quit my teaching as well.

School: This area of my life seems to not change. I'm going on my third week of my third round. I feel so stuck in a rut with this any more, but I guess that's what school is. I just can't wait to actually get into one of my psychology classes. I'll be ecstatic!

Health: ok, this is where my excuse for not writing comes in. In the last month and a half I have suffered a back injury, anxiety attacks, staph infection and then cellulitus. I'm still fighting the staph infection and cellulitus, I finally went to a doctor about it and got put on medications. These meds have made me very groggy, tired and spacey. I haven't been doing much other than laying down and watching movies.
I got the back injury at the assistant job, and that got treated.
Then the anxiety attacks have been coming from all the stress I feel I am under.
We have no idea where the staph infection came from, but it started in my knee. From there it spread into being cellulitus all over my body. It really hasn't been a fun ride and can't wait to be done with it all. I'm finally starting to see the swelling go down and all the infected spots healing.
With all this though, I have seen a drastic weight loss. I feel so skinny and frail but I can't eat much because it makes me feel sick. I think after I'm recovered I'll be consulting my doctor about the 7 pounds I've lost within a month. 'cause I don't think that can be healthy when I barely had that weight to lose in the first place.

So, that's all I really have the energy to talk about right now. I'll post tomorrow about how the stuff goes at work and I'll also post about the living situation, friend and thought things that I was hoping to hit on here but simply don't have the energy to do.
Again, thank you for sticking with me through all of this.