Wanna know something I don't like about myself...
I write.
Yeah, that's right...
I don't like that I write.
Personally I think I write pretty well.
I'm not the best,
but there is no way I'm the worst.
I know I have spelling and grammar errors
and still don't know when to use "to" or "too".
I still think I get what I'm meaning to be clear...
by this time you might be wondering why I don't like that I write, right?
Well, it is fairly simple,
I can express myself so well when I write,
partly because I can proof read before anyone gets to read it,
but with this fact I feel that when I try to talk about how I'm feeling...
I either ramble,
don't make sense
or say nothing.
I don't like that I write because I feel like now I can only fully express myself through my writing.
And I am a little tired of hiding between pen and paper
or behind these computer screens...
I think...
it is about time
I find my voice again.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
October 21st, 2010: Quotes of the first few weeks of first year college
"Stories are supposed to be sexy... entertaining. Spelling things out like 'do not', 'can not'
... yeah, it's not sexy. USE CONTRACTIONS!" -Paul (English teacher)
"Oh look, that class got out early... you're not." - Paul
""If I live in Brazil I'll grow cumquats... Canada I'll grow... moose jerky?" - Paul
"See, once a fraction goes up its like the world is going to end... or like we're going to run into the backside of the car in front of us... fraction! AH!!!! Then BOOM!"-Matt (Math teacher)
"We could put cos(x-y)-2sin x+2sin y= 3 into a calculator... my calculator said 'yeah, not doing it'." -Matt
"She now thinks we need to guard the Canadian border. 'Cause you know we have to watch out for those Canadians. They might smuggle in maple syrup... watch out if you're having breakfast!" -Matt
"What's the rate?" - Matt
"Achoo!" -student
"No! but good guess. " -Matt
"That's really strange... it's like an evil donut or something." - Paul
"Its not like a science book that gives you content... it (English book) isn't like MEIOSIS!" -Paul
"That little half (of 20.5), we'll just have to throw it out... it could be a child but we've reached capacity." -Matt
"But then you get busted and get a Lifetime movie based on you." - Paul
"Yeah, its a rough place in the UNLV library. People get killed everyday while diving for a book." -Paul
"When you're like 15 and all 'I'm so depressed' no, you're not get over it... then the next day you're the happiest you've ever been." -Paul
"I only get drunk at 8 in the morning on Sundays. Joking! TOTALLY JOKING!" -Paul
"Five points for folling instructions... folling? falling... following.."-Paul
"It this were Alaska, it would get dark at eleven in the afternoon." - Matt
"Its not like a coo-ka-munga number is the ratio, no its in the word. Ratio, rational." -Matt
"Some of you decided to drink from the creek (of knowledge). Some decided to drink alcohol." -Matt
"I'm not Casey!" -Casey
"Babies... AH-HA!" -Casey
"Just a cookie..." -Cortney (roommate)
"Can you bleach a black man?" -Cortney
"I don't know... go spray a black man with bleach." - Carly
"(to the beat of "Shots" by LMFAO) Socks, socks, socks, socks, socks, socks... EVERYBODY!" -Cortney
"If you die... don't die." -Cortney
"What it do baby boo (talking to KFC chicken)... get in my mouth!" -Cortney
"You know why? I a G6!" - Cortney
"Was that English?!" -Carly
"Where are my pants?" -Carly
"You're wearing them.."-Cortney
"My fridge is cold." -Cortney
"The power of C!" -Cortney
"Any two points makes a line. Any three points makes a triangle, unless they're in a line. YAY GEOGRAPHY!" - Chris
"What day is it tomorrow?" -Cortney
"Thursday.. I think." -Carly
"Yeah?" -Cortney
"I think." -Carly
"What's tomorrow?" -Cortney
"Do you have Lady Antebellum?" -Cortney
"Yeah." - Carly
"Do you have that song?" -Cortney
"Need you now?" -Carly
"Yeah." -Cortney
"Yeah."-Carly
"YAY!" - Cortney
... yeah, it's not sexy. USE CONTRACTIONS!" -Paul (English teacher)
"Oh look, that class got out early... you're not." - Paul
""If I live in Brazil I'll grow cumquats... Canada I'll grow... moose jerky?" - Paul
"See, once a fraction goes up its like the world is going to end... or like we're going to run into the backside of the car in front of us... fraction! AH!!!! Then BOOM!"-Matt (Math teacher)
"We could put cos(x-y)-2sin x+2sin y= 3 into a calculator... my calculator said 'yeah, not doing it'." -Matt
"She now thinks we need to guard the Canadian border. 'Cause you know we have to watch out for those Canadians. They might smuggle in maple syrup... watch out if you're having breakfast!" -Matt
"What's the rate?" - Matt
"Achoo!" -student
"No! but good guess. " -Matt
"That's really strange... it's like an evil donut or something." - Paul
"Its not like a science book that gives you content... it (English book) isn't like MEIOSIS!" -Paul
"That little half (of 20.5), we'll just have to throw it out... it could be a child but we've reached capacity." -Matt
"But then you get busted and get a Lifetime movie based on you." - Paul
"Yeah, its a rough place in the UNLV library. People get killed everyday while diving for a book." -Paul
"When you're like 15 and all 'I'm so depressed' no, you're not get over it... then the next day you're the happiest you've ever been." -Paul
"I only get drunk at 8 in the morning on Sundays. Joking! TOTALLY JOKING!" -Paul
"Five points for folling instructions... folling? falling... following.."-Paul
"It this were Alaska, it would get dark at eleven in the afternoon." - Matt
"Its not like a coo-ka-munga number is the ratio, no its in the word. Ratio, rational." -Matt
"Some of you decided to drink from the creek (of knowledge). Some decided to drink alcohol." -Matt
"I'm not Casey!" -Casey
"Babies... AH-HA!" -Casey
"Just a cookie..." -Cortney (roommate)
"Can you bleach a black man?" -Cortney
"I don't know... go spray a black man with bleach." - Carly
"(to the beat of "Shots" by LMFAO) Socks, socks, socks, socks, socks, socks... EVERYBODY!" -Cortney
"If you die... don't die." -Cortney
"What it do baby boo (talking to KFC chicken)... get in my mouth!" -Cortney
"You know why? I a G6!" - Cortney
"Was that English?!" -Carly
"Where are my pants?" -Carly
"You're wearing them.."-Cortney
"My fridge is cold." -Cortney
"The power of C!" -Cortney
"Any two points makes a line. Any three points makes a triangle, unless they're in a line. YAY GEOGRAPHY!" - Chris
"What day is it tomorrow?" -Cortney
"Thursday.. I think." -Carly
"Yeah?" -Cortney
"I think." -Carly
"What's tomorrow?" -Cortney
"Do you have Lady Antebellum?" -Cortney
"Yeah." - Carly
"Do you have that song?" -Cortney
"Need you now?" -Carly
"Yeah." -Cortney
"Yeah."-Carly
"YAY!" - Cortney
Saturday, October 16, 2010
October 16th, 2010: How to essay
Wear a Heart on Your Sleeve
It is now time for origami! By the end of this you will successfully be able to make a 3D paper heart. This skill is very handy for Valentine's day and passing notes to your “sweet heart” in high school. You will need one to twenty pieces of normal printer paper, this way you'll have room to mess up. I don't see anyone needing more than twenty pieces of paper, but if you feel like you may need more, by all means, grab more paper. Along with the paper you will need a little patience, two free hands, possibly a trash basket, some tape and a finely sharpened pencil, these last two are for if you want to cheat.
Now, sit in a comfy chair in front of any kind of flat surface you can use as a table. Take your first sheet of paper and lay it horizontally in front of you, think of the horizon if you can't remember which way is horizontally or vertically. If this still confuses you, put the sheet of paper with the long side of the rectangle towards you. Fold this sheet of paper towards you, “hotdog style” or horizontally in half. Once you are content with that fold, repeat and fold the paper towards you, “hotdog style” again, If you want, mark the middle of the rectangle. Make sure to smooth out the edges, so the heart doesn't come out look odd and bumpy. If you are a perfectionist, you can fold the to ends together making a rectangle half the length and mark the middle of the rectangle. This will help to avoid a lop-sided heart. You do not have to do this step however.
Make sure the open part of the “hotdog” is towards you, this is very important for steps later on in the process. Fold one of the sides of the rectangle into the center of the rectangle, making a right angle. Make sure the side you fold is, yet again, the open part of the “hotdog”. You should have an open part of the “hotdog” facing towards you, and facing toward the inside of the right angle just made.
Now, fold the other side to mirror that. This should make a triangle at the bottom with two long rectangles coming up, or an arrow pointing at you. If you have now messed up, take a deep breath, crumple the paper in anger and throw it in the trash, grab a new piece of paper and begin again. If you don't want to waste paper however, calmly unfold the piece of paper, breathe and simply begin again.
Flip your paper over, now you see a difference in the triangle and rectangles. Take one of the long rectangle flaps and fold it down toward the outside of the triangle, so that it is right next to the long edge of the triangle. Repeat on the other side. It should now look kind of like something a superhero would have as an emblem.
Fold each of those flaps down toward the bottom of the heart. This should make the shape of the top of a heart. Tuck the rectangles into the long edge of the triangle, they might stay but if you want you may use tape so the heart doesn't explode open the minute you put it down on the table or throw it across the room to your “sweet heart”.
You have hopefully now had success in making a 3D paper heart, this success may have come after a few tries, but you still did it! You can now decorate it with sparkles, stickers, drawings and give them away as valentines instead of having to buy them! Hopefully, making this didn't cause too many paper cuts, if so put some Neosporin and a band-aid on the cuts, you'll be good as new in a few days. For now, take out the trash which might be full of failures then be proud of yourself in learning your new paper heart making skill.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
October 12th, 2010: No worries
Hello world, did you miss me? No worries, I'm not dead... its just been stressful on this side of the blog. So lets get you updated, yes?
So, as you all know, I tore the ligaments in my ankle and have to wear an ankle boot... well see, last blog I didn't really explain how that impacted me sooooo much to where I might have had to go home...
You see, readers, I'm a dance major and more than half of my classes were dance classes. Obviously if I can't dance I fail these classes. Well, with just plain out dropping these classes, I'd only have 3 credits... you need 12 to stay in the dorms (which of course, with not being anywhere close to home, is where I live). So I was screwed. All because I was dancing in my Jazz class and tore ligaments. Ugh, I felt beyond screwed over. I didn't want to leave Vegas, I wanted to finish out this semester here.
Well now, to update everything. I started thinking for myself over the weekend, instead of just letting the frustration and opinions of everyone else get to me. I decided I'd look into mid-semester classes and then when I'm home for Christmas break I'd decide if I wanted to come back to UNLV or not depending on how I felt and where my ankle is in its healing process. So with that choice, I called my parents and told them.
Monday (aka: yesterday): I didn't have to get up till 8ish because I don't have English this week since we are doing conferences. Well, my conference with Paul (English teacher) was yesterday in the Coffee Bean in Lied (pronounced like lee-d) at 8:50. I showed up early, mainly because I didn't even know there was a Coffee Bean ON campus, but it all worked out to where I got a White Chocolate blended coffee.... yum! Sat down with Paul and found out my recent grades: B on my latest essay and B- on my midterm... and B+ in class overall. Yay!
After that I had a meeting with my advisor at 9:30, to tell him what I wanted to do about everything. I obviously needed to drop my dance classes but had to fill those 6 credits some way or another. He agreed. We got all that worked out and I now have 2 classes I must attend and 2 classes online. So everything is finally worked out and Vegas has to deal with me a little longer.
As for today: even though I kinda wanna yell at the girls who are screaming down the hallway, I'm still in a good mood. I trimmed and re-layered my hair and felt great after so I dressed accordingly to go to class... well.. I guess I look decent since a guy crashed his skateboard into a speed bump smiling at me. Needless to say: made my day.
Things seem to be on the right track again, now lets just see if they will stay there till I'm at least home.
I have my MRI on Friday so we can see the damage on my ankle... I'm kinda nervous but really excited.
I promise readers, now that things are back to good, I'll keep you more updated. Thank you for sticking with me, and reading. It means a lot to me. And if you feel so obliged, so I can see exactly how many readers I have (I'm very curious), please write a comment or message me somehow. Thank you so much. :)
Have a great week, and rest of the day.I'm meeting up with Casey at 7ish to go eat at the DC... then back to my lovely Supernatural obsession. Jared Padalecki <3
So, as you all know, I tore the ligaments in my ankle and have to wear an ankle boot... well see, last blog I didn't really explain how that impacted me sooooo much to where I might have had to go home...
You see, readers, I'm a dance major and more than half of my classes were dance classes. Obviously if I can't dance I fail these classes. Well, with just plain out dropping these classes, I'd only have 3 credits... you need 12 to stay in the dorms (which of course, with not being anywhere close to home, is where I live). So I was screwed. All because I was dancing in my Jazz class and tore ligaments. Ugh, I felt beyond screwed over. I didn't want to leave Vegas, I wanted to finish out this semester here.
Well now, to update everything. I started thinking for myself over the weekend, instead of just letting the frustration and opinions of everyone else get to me. I decided I'd look into mid-semester classes and then when I'm home for Christmas break I'd decide if I wanted to come back to UNLV or not depending on how I felt and where my ankle is in its healing process. So with that choice, I called my parents and told them.
Monday (aka: yesterday): I didn't have to get up till 8ish because I don't have English this week since we are doing conferences. Well, my conference with Paul (English teacher) was yesterday in the Coffee Bean in Lied (pronounced like lee-d) at 8:50. I showed up early, mainly because I didn't even know there was a Coffee Bean ON campus, but it all worked out to where I got a White Chocolate blended coffee.... yum! Sat down with Paul and found out my recent grades: B on my latest essay and B- on my midterm... and B+ in class overall. Yay!
After that I had a meeting with my advisor at 9:30, to tell him what I wanted to do about everything. I obviously needed to drop my dance classes but had to fill those 6 credits some way or another. He agreed. We got all that worked out and I now have 2 classes I must attend and 2 classes online. So everything is finally worked out and Vegas has to deal with me a little longer.
As for today: even though I kinda wanna yell at the girls who are screaming down the hallway, I'm still in a good mood. I trimmed and re-layered my hair and felt great after so I dressed accordingly to go to class... well.. I guess I look decent since a guy crashed his skateboard into a speed bump smiling at me. Needless to say: made my day.
Things seem to be on the right track again, now lets just see if they will stay there till I'm at least home.
I have my MRI on Friday so we can see the damage on my ankle... I'm kinda nervous but really excited.
I promise readers, now that things are back to good, I'll keep you more updated. Thank you for sticking with me, and reading. It means a lot to me. And if you feel so obliged, so I can see exactly how many readers I have (I'm very curious), please write a comment or message me somehow. Thank you so much. :)
Have a great week, and rest of the day.I'm meeting up with Casey at 7ish to go eat at the DC... then back to my lovely Supernatural obsession. Jared Padalecki <3
^ How I looked for my meeting with my advisor.
I wanted to look like I wasn't playing games, but still wanted to look friendly.
^how I look today
Hair re-layered and a little shorter. I love it.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
October 7th, 2010: I don't want to...
I'm laying here, the only light is the light of my laptop screen.
I'm curled up in a ball... tears running down my face.
My ankle hurts, and the ankle boot makes my foot itch (I tore a lot of ligaments in my ankle).
My only option it seems is to go home...
and I don't want to.
I WANT to finish the year here...
even if it just means getting my gen ed out of the way...
but my dad wants me home...
and it feels like my mom is just so scattered that one second its stay here, next second its come home and there's no support any where
I'm the one injured... I'm the one hearing all this stuff without some sort of back up.
I don't want to go home.
I want to finish my year here.
Should I scream it at the top of my lungs so I'm heard?
But if I stay here...
what do I do?
I'm curled up in a ball... tears running down my face.
My ankle hurts, and the ankle boot makes my foot itch (I tore a lot of ligaments in my ankle).
My only option it seems is to go home...
and I don't want to.
I WANT to finish the year here...
even if it just means getting my gen ed out of the way...
but my dad wants me home...
and it feels like my mom is just so scattered that one second its stay here, next second its come home and there's no support any where
I'm the one injured... I'm the one hearing all this stuff without some sort of back up.
I don't want to go home.
I want to finish my year here.
Should I scream it at the top of my lungs so I'm heard?
But if I stay here...
what do I do?
Sunday, October 3, 2010
October 3rd, 2010: Tears
I'm in tears right now...
not bad tears..
but good tears.
I just got off the phone with my dad,
and I finally heard the words I've been working so hard to hear...
apparently he's said them before but their usually surrounded by negative so I never hear it...
this time it wasn't.
It was all good:
"Just with talking on the phone to you, I can hear how much you've grown up in such a short period of time. I'm proud of you."
There they were.
Ringing in my ears and bringing tears to my eyes.
I know my dad is proud of me but its rare to hear it like how it was said.
Usually its "I'm always proud of you but you could do better"...
or something along those lines.
I miss my dad so much.
Even though him and I don't get along as much as I wish we did...
I miss him so much.
I miss my mom too, but that one is obvious.
"I'm proud of you."
Thanks daddy...
not bad tears..
but good tears.
I just got off the phone with my dad,
and I finally heard the words I've been working so hard to hear...
apparently he's said them before but their usually surrounded by negative so I never hear it...
this time it wasn't.
It was all good:
"Just with talking on the phone to you, I can hear how much you've grown up in such a short period of time. I'm proud of you."
There they were.
Ringing in my ears and bringing tears to my eyes.
I know my dad is proud of me but its rare to hear it like how it was said.
Usually its "I'm always proud of you but you could do better"...
or something along those lines.
I miss my dad so much.
Even though him and I don't get along as much as I wish we did...
I miss him so much.
I miss my mom too, but that one is obvious.
"I'm proud of you."
Thanks daddy...
Saturday, October 2, 2010
October 2nd, 2010: Goodness
So tonight is our game against our biggest rival (UNR)... we'll lose. We've only won one game and it was against New Mexico. So anyway, I'm not going to our game tonight... not only because I can predict that we'll lose horribly but also because my ankle hurts.
I went to see the doctor on Thursday and she told me I have tendonitis and tore a muscle in my ankle. It hurts horribly. So she prescribed a really heavy duty IbProphen and I have to keep my ankle wrapped. If it isn't better by Tuesday I'm supposed to call and see a different doctor. Ugh. I don't like doctors at all.
I've decided I should break up with Steven, not that anyone cares.
I can't wait to be home for Christmas. I wont want to leave.
I went to see the doctor on Thursday and she told me I have tendonitis and tore a muscle in my ankle. It hurts horribly. So she prescribed a really heavy duty IbProphen and I have to keep my ankle wrapped. If it isn't better by Tuesday I'm supposed to call and see a different doctor. Ugh. I don't like doctors at all.
I've decided I should break up with Steven, not that anyone cares.
I can't wait to be home for Christmas. I wont want to leave.
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