December 31st, 2010: Happy New Years Eve day

Wow, that's a tricky title.
Kinda don't really have anything to say,
just wanted to assure my readers I'm still here and haven't given up on my blogging carrer.
I now live in Eugene.
Trying to attend the college here,
but UNLV kinda screwed me over so I can't start right off the bat.
I finally got my room feeling like my room today,
and I've been here for about five-ish days now.
Crazy.
But I like it here...
as long as everything works out.


But see:

I'm still alive.

December 25th, 2010: "And they say, the Grinch's small heart grew three sizes that day".

Have you ever just listened to you heart?
Found out what makes it beat faster, or slower?
Test it: its interesting.
I know thinking about certain things/people makes my heart race,
and thinking about other things makes my heart almost stop...
its an interesting muscle/organ.
Test it....

December 25th, 2010: Tis Christmas.

Outline of Christmas:

Gifts:

• Bear holding bag of Snickers (Mat)
• Camera (Tom)
• Princess perfume (Mom)
• Tinkerbell Ornament (Mom)
• Car accessories (Dad)
• "Dream" bowl (Ariel)
• Chocolates (Carrie and Jackie)

For dinner there was turkey, sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, gravy, stuffing  and a bunch of other food. 'Twas what we are calling a "goddess Christmas" because it was just my mom, Jackie, Carrie and I for dinner. It was fun.
Now I am on the couch watching "How The Grinch Stole Christmas" and thinking about how much I have to do before I move on Tuesday.

Phew, better take a deep breath now while I have the chance.

December 22nd, 2010: Smile

Smile,
'cause it literally makes everything better.
Smiles make your "enimies" worry,
makes your friends feel good,
and brightens your heart.
Remember those moments that make you smile to where you can't stop,
remember those times where your smile made the whole world brighter.
Smiles are contagious...
smiles are beautiful.

I can't stop smiling,
though I am a little sad.
Its a bittersweet feeling right now,
everything is going beyond amazing,
and I'm so far beyond happy...
but now it'll be awhile till its here again.
Not a long while,
but still a while.

I need to figure out when I'm going to be moving,
make things less stressful...
I'm off to talk to my mom.
Lets figure some of this out.

"You’re better then the best
I’m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that’s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it’s ok, yeah it’s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you’re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don’t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile"

- Smile by Uncle Kracker

December 21st, 2010: So hard

Its so hard to not scream this secret to the world.
It had been three days now and I wanna just yell it from the tallest building.
I'll spill soon enough, but until then, its bottled up.
AH!!!

Okay, on a different note:
Its only four days till Christmas, and wanna know something cool?
There's more gifts under my tree for friends than they're are me.
I am in such a good mood.
Maybe Oregon does fit me, which I'm fine with.

I'm still trying to figure out everything out with living and schooling:
I wanna live with Mat in Eugene and just transfer my Florence stuff over to Eugene,
but guess what;
its not that easy:
EVER!
I tried to go onto the website to get my official transcript from UNLV and guess what:
I'm blocked from it because "I owe them money".
So guess what else:
I can't start school this coming term.
UGH!

Luckily I have my secret, and my secret is great...
can't wait till I can tell.
Its getting so hard to not tell everyone.

December 18, 2010: Just an update

Just as an update for those who think I've jumped off a bridge or got beaten up by a Oregon moose: I am fine. Still living, I promise.
I haven't been writing much because I've been trying to see my friends.
Last night Auni, Hannah, Mat and I went to the ballroom.
It was great!
Mat and I are seriously inseperable lately:
last weekend he got into town on Sunday and spent the night at my house,
then Monday I spent the night at his. We were apart for Wednesday while I was out of town and he went back to Eugene.
Then he came back into town yesterday and we went to the ballroom: surprise surprise: he spent the night here. Now as I am typing this, I am waiting for him to come pick me up so I can spend the night over at his house and we'll be together all day tomorrow too since we are going to the bowling tournament in Grants Pass.
I'm still trying to make plans to see Devin and what not, he just got over being sick so we'll see each other soon; hopefully.
Well that is seriously all I had readers, just wanted to assure you that I'm not lost in the forest or anything.


Oh and for a more serious tone:
I got Lane Community college all worked out for Florence, but I haven't been accepted for housing. I may look into seeing how easy/hard it would be to transfer everything over to the LCC in Eugene since that way I know I could live with Mat.
I need to make a choice soon since the LCC in Florence starts school January 3rd. But how can I go to school when I have no place to live?

December 14th, 2010: Coming up on the end of a busy busy week...

Friday:

• Got dad from airport
• packed my car
• checked out of my dorm
• said bye to Chris and Cortney
• started the road trip home (didn't sleep much in the car either)

Saturday:

• Got home around 6a.m
• Hung out with mom
• Unpacked car
• hung out with Gabe and Ariel
• Was Senior Sam's (near Crater) last customer
• Saw the Crater play: The Mirror

Sunday:

• Mall with Ariel
• Hung out with Mat, Zack, Ariel, Mark
• Went to Ashland with those said above.
• Drove around with Mat and Zack
• Mat and Zack stayed the night and we watched Harry and the Hendersons.

Monday:

• Drove to Eugene
• Met with housing of St. Vincent de Paul for Florence.
• Drove back home
• Went over to Mat's
• Played Scrabble
• Stayed the night at Mat's

Tuesday:

• Went to school with Mat.
• Saw all the teachers I wanted to see
• Went to Sonic for lunch.
• Got my car registration renewed
• Went bowling

Rest of the week:
Tomorrow (aka Wednesday) I drive to Florence and meet with my LCC councilor. Then drive back home.
Thursday I have no plans and Friday I get to go to the ballroom.